So, I was looking through some of my old photos, and I couldn't help but notice how happy I looked. It's been something I've been noticing a lot lately, that a lot of the time I feel so forced to be happy. I'm not saying I'm not happy, its just some days it seems a lot harder than others.
I miss my family and friends so much more than I ever thought I would, and just being able to see their faces whether through pics, or skype etc. makes me so happy, and makes it a lot easier. I have loved living in Oregon, and the learning experience it has given me, but it is time for me to come back, I need my family and friends in my life, I need my support system.
It's been really hard lately, because everything in my future is so uncertain. I have no idea where I am going to be living, going to school, i need a job etc. It's just a lot of stress and pressure to worry about, because well I worry about EVERYTHING!! And, on top of it school, and CBEST, and foreign language test, I think I may explode, hahaha. I just have to remind myself to breathe, and take it one day at a time, which isnt easy, as I like to put the horse before the cart, cross my bridges before I come to them, you get the idea.
It wasn't until I skyped with my two closest and dearest friends the past few days that I realized how much I really miss being close to them. Being at least a day away in travel just makes it hard, and I realize how much I depend on them to keep my sane, I have no idea what I would do without my friends and family, they are truly amazing. I guess, with all the stress and anxiety I just have become homesick! Hopefully, I will hear from school soon, and my path will become a bit clearer. In the meantime, just gotta keep breathing, and keep my head up! I am almost done, and I know I can do this! :)
Sorry-there was not much point to this post!
